November 04, 2019 - 9:22 PM

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It is so crazy that I can feel so light right now, happy, joyful, relaxed, life is great, it looks bright….. 3 hours ago I was suicidal. And I’m sure if I get into the trigger and why I was suicidal and what I was feeling, what I was thinking, my happy light joyful peace will go away. So I’m not going to do that.

But still. How can these 2 coexist?

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